I’ve had the greatest pleasure of choosing psychology as my major. Why? Well it has its benefits of letting you examine human behaviour. My behaviour modification lecturer gave me an important lesson today. It was as if she knew how I was feeling about my current relationship and blessed me with great knowledge. Problem behaviours are normally encouraged because of positive reinforcements. You do something because you know at the end of the day it satisfies a need.
I realised that the reason why I’m unhappy is because I encourage the problem behaviour. As a woman, I believe that a guy is supposed to know when your girlfriend is unhappy and try in the best way possible to fix it. How can you let someone you love continue to hurt and the excuse you have is that you’re “busy”? Too busy to consider the feelings of someone you call your girlfriend?
No, I not putting all the blame on him, I am at fault. I don’t vocalize my feelings as soon as Ive been wronged. I overthing and shed tears. I stop talking to you and expect you to know that I’m not happy. I expect you to atleast try to fix it. I expect you to be in the least bit concerned. All these expectations= disappointed.
What to do you then?
If I were to let you know all of the wrongs I’ve experienced in this relationship then you would question why am I still him. Have you ever experienced a love so great that you could see yourself with this person forever? Well I do, if these problems are resolved. The only thing that’s keeping me in this relationship is the hope that one day it will get better.
Is it fair to only hold onto hope? A possibility that things will better. You don’t actually know if this will ever be achieved but you don’t want to let go. If you let go then you’re cheating yourself out something that could be great.
I wish I knew what to do.